Heart of a Lover

Love...the ever unspoken, overused, cliche, oxymoron...the magical, dreaded, amazing...L word. What is it? How does it feel? How does one know what love is without knowing the stinging pain of heartbreak or being lied to, cheated on, or pushed away?

This word to me, these four letters can make your world go round or completely stop you in your tracks. Sometimes when you think that you've finally got it love throws a curve ball shattering you to your soul. I've learned alot from love. For instance, love is the full sacrafice and understanding that there is someone else in this world other than yourself. However, just because two people love each other doesn't mean that they are supposed to be together. I think this is the hardest lesson that I've learned and am still learning over this year...there is more to a relationship than just love. It's those other ingredients that go into love...you know...trust(good luck understanding this one)...honesty(which in itself has many perceptions)...loyalty(hmmmmmm). To understand love you must first understand each one of these things. Love is crazy in that we all say we'll never go back once a person has left our lives or that God puts people in your life for seasons...which He does however you never know when the past may hold the key to your future or which season God has put a person into your life. Love is a cycle just like most other things. What does love even feel like...how do you know? I know for me love feels warm and fuzzy. It's the smile on my face when even the thought of you crosses my mind. It's how I lay my head on your chest to see if my heartbeat matches yours. It's when you're my goodmorning and my sweet dreams. Not necessarily everything in common but a balance that both of us can juggle. Love is my butterflies in my stomach and that tingling feeling that overtakes me when you touch me or kiss my lips. When you're in love you'll know it because it's a feeling that you just can't and don't want to get rid of.

Have you ever felt a heartbreak so bad you never thought you'd love again? Yea me too. It stings like literally you feel like your heart is in your throat and it's gonna jump out any moment. There's never a right time for a pain like this but a word of advice....Don't stop loving...don't stop living. God has never stop loving us regardless of the numerous times we break His heart daily. He is our example of how love should be...He even lays it out for us in His word and I'll leave you with that...

1 Corinthians 13
The Greatest Gift

1 Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal. 2 And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3 And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned,[a] but have not love, it profits me nothing.4 Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; 5 does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; 6 does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; 7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. 8 Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part. 10 But when that which is perfect has come, then that which is in part will be done away. 11 When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things. 12 For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known. 13 And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.